Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Monday, August 20, 2007

A way full of happiness...



Things do run away from us...and the funniest part is....we don't even feel like a stupid running behind 'em again and again. ohk...now here i remember a filmy dialogue ( i knw it's nautanki) from the movie dch. "ret ko chahe jitna pakadne jaoge...utnihi woh apne hathon se chhutti jayegi" and fucking this is true....a very apt advise given by akshay khanna or rather the dialogue writer of the movie...and i have decided to follow it....and i hope that i could do that....(touchwood)
whenever i think about this running behind thingie i thinks that it's all about maya....yes the Goddess of perplexion (confusion) according to Rahul sharma's album. This maya actually makes are life...shiiit...like...she runs in fronta us..and we have no choice but run behind her....and the strange thing about her..is she takes us now where....its like some illusion....or horizon...it's tempting...we would love to discover the other world...but....in return you would get nothing.....the way outa this crap..is really a tough one....i wonder...how to find the way to get out of this world...that is full of....illusions...but i guess...the day i find this...way...i would be the happiest person on this earth....i hope that i could see the day soon.....and...would surely tell you guys about the path...but for now...i expect your suggestions over this theory.....and before going here i say a thank you...in advance...:-)

Friday, July 13, 2007

Miss you....

i seriously dont know why it happens with me...but yes it does happen...the thing i love the most.....somehow leaves me......

these are the things that i misss...a lot...

laptop...yes i had this...kool laptop..my bro had gifted it to me...nd i screwed it...it had these awesome collection of songs...pictures...movies....my projects...my copies.....and yes u can call me stupid here...but..yeah...i dint keep any back up..nd here i am....using this... laptop...(it's my dad's) and trying...to...get acquainted with it.

Blue top…….it was a very cute top that I bought from somewhere I don’t really remember…but it was very nice… plain light blue colour..very simple…I dunno where it is…but the only thing I know is.. that I lost it…

Maroon jari bag…
Saw this bag in one exhibition…and fell in love with it…it was this..maroon colour bag with golden jari on it…and made out of very soft silk material…I still have it..but sadly not in the condition tht I cud carry it…but it’s just pretty

Blue butterfly…
I bought this real pretty…belt that had this blue butterfly on it….how bad it cud get….i wore it for the first time…nd broke..de butterfly…shyaa…I guess…..i should stop using the stuff that I love the most..nd just keep it in a…glass showcase…

I never wear one earring..for more than…5 times…thanks to my mood…as de earrings that I like now….may be I wud say it sucks…after a month…still I had these diamond..earrings..tht I use to wear everyday.…like I actually wore them for more than 3 months..nd I was in love with them…aaarghh…m stupid..i don’t know where I kept them…. But sadly they don’t belong to me now…

Pink diamond…
It happened to me today… so I am more sad…and is the reason that made me write this post…
I lost the pink stud that was there in my nose ring..i bought it last Sunday…it was more special…coz I bought that with someone…huh huh……shyaaa…how cud I be so stupid…but…cant help it…..i miss u the pink stud…

There are many things…that I have lost…and use to love ’em a lot…but don’t want to bug u guys by writing….never-ending list…

Now m scared about the two things ….i love them a lot…..a purple finger ring….nd my ghungroos….i don’t wanna harm these two things…touchwood……that leaves a stupid thought in my mind..should I stop loving things????

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I love newspapers

NEWSPAPERS!!! i love you.... ok this is not because i am doing my graduation in journalism...and so i love' em....hmmm.. you can consider that as ONE of the reason...but.....in this post .....i adore newspapers....as they are the 'life savers'....this is a bit exageration ( but u can always accept such exagerations from a good journalist in making..:D)

FLASH BACK

ok this was the time when we ( me and rims, u cn call her my better/bitter half) had just known about the internet....say we were in our class 7....and were all excited to explore the internet...CHATTING was the best thing....in the world we used to think...and...were all really excited to go to chat rooms...nd make new friends....

we actually spent our whole pocket money.....in the the cyber cafe but anyways look at this in a postive manner.... we contributed to Jayshree cyber cafe lot and it helped for its bussinees to run in full swing...

it was like 30 bucks...for an hour....and that one hour was like....awesome for us....go chat with strangers...surf for ur favourite actors fotograph......take the print out....keep it in ur wallet....not tht we use to get those postcard size fotographs of actors in stationary shops... but....dude.....it's internet picture...it's different.....hehehe when we think about it now....its really weired...and now wen u hv 24*7 net at ur place....

but once i remember...we sat for a long time in the cafe...like..we dint had that much money...and the bill had already crossed 100 bucks....we both were all sad and actually dint know wat to do...just told the unlce that we wud give u the csh in half an hour...but it was not possible..as our parents wud have killed us....if we told them about the surfing and chatting thingie....
but who says that sukhi nd rims dont have brain..we actually do have when it comes to....such wicked things...we straight away went to our respective houses..and got ....our raddi....we made nice fat amount by selling the newspapers to raddiwala....and that was the time...wen i came to know..that we actually get more money from english newspapers...than regional ones...that time my dad used to subscribe only marathi newspapers....but the very next day i managed to convince my dad....that english newspapers are...more knowledgable and all tht crap...nd he subscribed for an english issue.....he was all proud of her daughter that she is actually taking interest in journalism and all that....but sorry dad...tht time andar ki baat toh kuch aur hi thi.....hehehehe me and my devil mind....( a devil smiley)
and now you people....know why i love...newspapers and y r they life savers ....hehehehe

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Be as you are...just a thought

Because it has lived its life intensely
Parched grass still attracts the gaze of passers-by.
The flowers merely flower,
And they do this as well as they can.
The white lily, blooming unseen in the valley,
Does not need to explain itself to anyone;
It lives merely for beauty.
Men, however, cannot accept that 'merely'.

If tomatoes wanted to be melons,
They would look completely ridiculous.
I am always amazed
That so many people are concerned
With wanting to be what they are not;
What's the point of making yourself ridiculous?


You don't always have to pretend to be strong,
There's no need to prove all the time that everything is going well,
You shouldn't be concerned about what other people are thinking,
Cry if you need to,
Its good to cry out all your tears
Because only then will you be able to smile again.

Mitsuo Aida

Monday, June 4, 2007

Parwaaz....

parwaaz.... ok I know what are you thinking about...if at all you are a Jagjit singh fan or atleast you know a bit about him...you must have started thinking about his beautiful album.....that has these awesome and unique Gazals. But give all those musical thoughts a break now as this blog of mine has nothing to do with jagjit singh or his music. The only thing common in this blog and him is the word Parwaaz. Ever given a thought, what does this word mean.....even I never thought about it, but it was only when I was talking with my friend that i came across this word. This is a urdu word that has a very beautiful meaning. And here firstly i would like to thank my friend and his knowledge of urdu language to introduce me to this word. It means a bird's first flight. This is the time when the innocent bird is introduced to the world. All this while the bird that was under its parent's protection get its own identity and true to the phrase become a 'free bird'
Accordingly, even i think that each individual passes through the same moment. It can be any moment in one's life and different for each individual. The only thing that is universal is when a person get his/hers own recognition. Like when an individual recognises itself, when he thinks that i can ALONE be a part of this huge world, when one is proud of himslef, it's when one get his own identity. It may happen anytime, anywhere and differ from person to person. A musician may come across this feeling when his music touches the audiences' heart, when a true lover hears those magical three words from the person he loves the most, A beggar would realise this when he does just a mere work and satisfies his hunger by his own money and not by the begged money. Thousand people thousand situations. The only thing necessary, is one has to be satisfied, Pure and truthful. These three words help us to bring this moment of Parwaaz in our life or if you believe......it leads us to the path of 'Sufism'

Saturday, June 2, 2007

traveller




Last week i went to Ganpati pule....eventually i was not so keen about the trip....as i din't had very interesting company... i had no option but to go with my mom dad nana nani and one more family....we took the konkan railway in the night and it was not so fun...coz konkan railway is not the train to be taken in night as in day time it has this awesome scenary and beautiful nature.. but sadly....mere naseeb main woh nahi tha....next morning we reached ratnagiri ...nd went to the guest house..believe me it was beautiful..like no...crowd...no busy life...it was just quite nd calm....then immediately...after the breakfast we went to ganpati pule...the place where we were gonna stay was just 10 steps.....far from the sea shore nd that was the best thing....hmmm de beach was crowded nd also boring...not so goood crowd...so my mood was all off.....but before going to ganpati pule..we found this very cool place......called Are Ware...hmmm not that we explored it....but thanks to vishal...he told me about the place...its location..how nice it is nd.....also told me the best place to take pix....nd i promised him some pix...of the same place in return....the beach nd the bridge was so quite that the beauty lied only in its lonliness.....hmm people hardly new this place nd so was untouched...nd it was excellent...nd now m short of the adjectives...nd also words to describe it...thr is no apt word for the place...but..just Sufi......
then in Ganpati pule...we enjoyed typically by....going here nd there....boating..camel ride....tender coconut...delicious sea food...but the best thing was fishing....yep...we went to this...beach on the way to pawas...hmm beach was nice nd clean..nd we found few guys fishing...nd after u see such things...we HAD to poke....our nose in between...hehehehe yeah....it was best...we caught this big fish....nd also few little ones...(will try to upload de pix) we got them to the rest house....nd told the...guy to make them for us...and it tasted sooooooo kool.....hehehehe
very next moment we had to take the bus for mumbai as it was the time to say alvida to Konkan....but saadly...the returning journey was not sooooo good..it was boring....as night bus..that to....8 hrs..long journey...:( but.....on the whole....it was a fun experience!!!!
and now the following thingie is the article bout...the place...that m thinking of publishing..in the travel page...i hope our editor likes it...nd carries it...



No doubt Ganpati pule is necklace of Konkan belt which is beuatiful because of clean beach and eye soothing with coconut trees around. The natures beauty is enhanced by a temple of Swayambhu (self-made)Ganesha which proves beauty of shrine. Ganti Pule is situated in Ratnagiri district with 800 houses waiting for the hospitality of tourists. Ganpati pule is dominated by Brahmin Purohits who are engaged in rights and rituals of God Ganesh and also in lodging and boarding of tourists. Maharashtra tourism development corporation (MTDC) has a beautiful resort that take care of National and International tourists. There is a constant flow of International tourist for all eight months (excluding 4 months of monsoon). By deccan oddissi tourist train tourist's can also witness the folk music and other art forms on the se-shore with the natural whistle of sea winds.
Ganpati pule is 375-kilometre away from Mumbai and Pune. There is a bus available from Mumbai and Pune. One can visit the place by Konkan Railway getting down at Ratngiri and take a state transport bus. And this is one of the best options as the journey becomes beautiful as it passes the tunnels and natures beauty of Konkan.
This place is considered Holy because of the Ganesh temple and it has a deep cultural and literary significance too. Since Kavi Keshavsuth’s Memorial is just two kilometre ahead at Malgund most tourists who have a cultural and literary state of mind make it a point to visit the place. Pawas is another place that is a spot every visitor should go to. This place is prominent for the ashram of Swami Swaroopananda (a spiritual leader who influenced an entire generation of Maharashtrians). A visit to the place is a journey through time. 35-kilometres away from Ganapatipule is the legendary Jaigad fort that stands high and proud on the cliff with a spectacular view of the sea. The fort is at the entrance of the Sangameshwar River.
About 15 kilometres away from Ganpatipule towards Ratnagiri is the Are-Vare beach. Sparkling blue waters, endless stretches of sparkling sand, sun beams dancing through the swaying palms, waves playing with the sand dunes and cool breeze whispering in your ears are the best parts about spending an evening at this virgin beach. The beauty of this beach lies in its loneliness making it serene, sedate and unspoiled. After your visit to Ganpatipule beach and the temple that is crowded most of the times, the Are-Vare beach would surely soothe you.

dream come true

Just imagine....your dream guy.... rather...de person who means a lot in ur life...an absoulte idol in your life....is sitting right in front of you and is like talking with you for half an hour....just imagine... i knw u too getting butterflies in ur tummy... Yeah it happened with....me...it was a dream come true for me....and a lifetime experience....mah first love....RAHUL BOSE..yesss!!!! he was sitting right in fronta me...like so near that i could smell his perfume....aaahh...i wished tht i cud jzz bring that very day again in my life.....Ohk now few more details about the meet...it so happened..tht one day in mah office..(i used to wrk as an intern for a daily newspaper..in pune) we were....randomly dicussing about....your favourite actors!!....and mah editor was shocked to hear tht i like Rahul Bose....aaah like?????? It’s jzzz not de apt word...I LOVE RAHUL BOSE....and totally will do anything kinda love...its just his looks..his intelligence..de way he carries himself....de way he speaks...de way he plays.....rugby...de way he acts...anything and everything about Rahul bose. Ohk now bk to de office...i said tht yeah he is mah fav. Actor and not just a fav actor...but i consider him as an idol in mah life..and discusison ended thr...before ending the discussion i got many weired looks..like is this female crazy??? kinda looks...:( never mind. And the next day...mah editor called me...she was like..ohk..r u interested in attaining...a press conference whr...Rahul Bose is coming...i jumped thr nd thr..in front of mah editor...and was like Sure y not??? The event was gonna tk place that evening itself...i was so excited...and y wudnt i be??? The occassion was so special...manhhhh Rahul Bose..i was gonna interview him. Before leaving mah editor handed me a questionnaire...that i was supposed to ask him...i went thru the questions and was all ready....for de interview...i still remember...the last question...was about his personal life...which i saw and..i was bit...apprehensive to ask...... was scared ...nd just wudnt like a slap on mah face....after asking tht stupid question..nd i very well made my mind..tht m NOT goin to ask tht question...I reached the place 15 minutes before....it was an opening of some...i.t. dept. In the school....The school was meant for the....poor children...or deprived children or wateve it is called...(i dnt really care hehehe) i was eagerly waiting for Rahul bose to come and thr hwe came...in light pink shirt...black blazer and blach trouser and believe me he was looking awesomely good...all the chief guest thr...started their speech..and ofcourse they spoke n english...it was only rahul bose..tht...he spoke in hindi just for the kids to understand...nd i loved his speech...for that matter i just love anything about him..u knw me...Ohk then the time came for the press conference...the formal press conference took place..in which i was not really interested..as our...city page correspndent was already thr...to note down the...kaam ka points. After the conferesnce got over...i went towards him...and atlast asked him...for a one-o-one interview..he was like yeah y not.... ohk now de conversations were like....Me: personal interview???Rahul: social, if no then bye m goin ...Me: ohk social....just for 10 minutes??Rahul: 5 minutes otherwise m goin againNice dhamkis he was giving...anyways atlast he was ready for the interview..i felt like m already in the sky..just imagine guys ........and even gals...i was talkin wid mah dream guy...Then the interview started...he started of with the work that he was doing with an NGO.....he was wrking wid these...muslim females...for their upliftment...and all..then he even gave me the info bout the andaman nicobar wrk he was doing....A sad pause....as a guy came nd took him for a photograph...as all press ppl were waiting for him....but before leaving very sweetly he said tht dnt u wrry i’ll be bk in no time..and if at all i dnt cum, here is mah no. And he actually gave me his mobile no. But main bhi ziddi...i was waiting for him...when he returned back i again went to him..and asked him that...cud we just continue with the interview..and by the time he had forgotten his dhamkis...and.....surprisingly started talking bout his films in de pipeline..he mentioned bout pyaar ke side effects..his experience.....of wrking wid mallika and all...i nicely managed to get all de info which he denied before...lastly i jzz asked him one question....and he just loved the question and was....impressed by me...i was so happy again..ohk how dumb.. lemme tell u tht wat i asked him...i asked him tht..is thr any connection between ur films like mr. And mr. Iyer, split wide open....everybody says m fine..and the social wrk u do..he was so amazed tht...with the questione tht he went on with the answer for like 5 minutes...nd thn sadly but truely it was the time to ebd the interview...but before leaving i took his autograph..he even asked me tht a journalist is taking mah autograph...i was ike i jzz finished wid mah interview nd m no more a journalist...i am just another rahul bose fan.. nd i said bye......

Thursday, May 24, 2007

so wat if it is dhapo5d

ohk....i jus read rims blog...nd .......she has writen 8 things about herself.(ok u get it...RIMS has written it..so how can i avoid ...i HAVE to rite it too)..it's a stupid game....tht i dint understand...but apart frm de game thingie, writting stuff bout ourself is fun.....so here i go writting 7 things bout me....now dnt ask me y...7...hmmmm but considering...tht u are a sanki.. too.....nd wont listen to mah instructions...i'll better tell u tht..it's jzz mah lucky no.... thts it nothing elzz....

ONE: i love jumping...like its not tht....wen m excited i jump...i jump always...even if m in a big time tension (hardly though) i jump to de-stress myself....i knw it sounds stupid..but yeah i love jumping....nd first thing after i finish this blog..is m gonna jump....coz....m happy today.......( for rims.....i knw ur james bond dimag will dodo5...nd u wud think tht this is a fake happiness but it isnt sarcastic...m genuinely happy)

TWO: i love reading blogs......they r de best way to knw bout sumone or in more flowery language..these blogs are just like mirror..they reflect personalities...their views nd crap........(but sadly i dint get to read sum1s blog...nd so cudnt understand de person) neways..chuk de fuck i jzz love reading blogs and tht is imprtant..nd if it is Rahul bose's blog..thn poocho mat.....aish hain...

THREE: i love dancing.....de fact tht i hv learnt kathak...i love to do it myself or look at sumone who is performing kathak.... it needs loadsa dedication...nd i guess..i hv it...for like 50 per cent.

FOUR: sufism...mah parents are scared bout this.....they think tht....its strange tht their daughter like sufi thoughts and are also afraid tht i'll be one of the sufis....but...i jzz love the music...nd their thoughts...really appreciate 'em....nd sure gonna dedicate one blog for sufism.....for now this is a bit bout it...."one who dies for the love of truth dies sufi" jzz love this purity thing..tht they preach....its de basic thing..tht one shud follow....thts it for now

FIVE: i hate wen i call sumone nd de person dsnt pick up the fone....it just irritates me...to helll.....so de moral is...i hate being ignored....:(

SIX: i love mah frnz.....mah family...yeah mah bro, rahul bose, sultan khan, mah guru, mah parents, rahul sharma, indian ocean, nodddy....nd.everyone i knw....nd i hate..wen sumone needs my help..nd i cudnt help them....so wenever u ask me for any help....first think..tht is sukhi able to help...not twice but hundred times....as i just cnt say NO..nd it hurts me a lot...a lottt a lottt...ohhh...i hate wen i cnt help ppl...not wen ppl ask me for some help..hehehehe


SEVEN: this is the new thing tht i hv started liking....i like to....sub....its de best thing to do... nd tht is wat m doin in de office since one month....yeah its one month... last month on 24th i had joined times of india as an intern....neways...pointed baat yeh hain..ki subbing is fun..give intros...give headline..punctuate stories..its just nice....but it is really saaad wen u get sick stories....but still...its good fun nd very important..thing in a journalist's life...as i aspire to be a good journalist....hehehehehe i knw kuch jyada hi senti dialogue...but its true...i WANT to be a journalist....

Saturday, May 19, 2007

continued.........

i know it is too late....but...yeah for a change i was busy...hehehehe anyways...now comes the interview part...
i went in for the interview, the editor thr......a giant...i saw him...nd the first thought came in my mind was...will he spit on my face like..satish kaushik did in main hoon na...coz he looked de same...neways interview was kinda kool..like he just asked me more about my cv nothing else....but he asked me this stupid question and i was like wtf...why r u so interested....he was like, y de hell did u go to pune for ur internship?? nd thr...i managed to give him some crappy answer...but i just thought of saying.... to find my prince charming do you mind??? hehehe but sadly i cudnt say tht...the interview was done and he just said tht he'll get back to me....
nd then it was rims turn..nd she actually screwed it....her id is pristinestupidity...and thr she went ..explaining him the idea behind her id..it was damn funny.....
we both were out...with a very little hope of getting de job....but still de first experience....was fun...i really njoyed it....
hmmmmmmm.........may now m waiting for the next interview.......let see!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

.....and the pigs will fly!!! :(

yepppie!!!!! me and rims were so wxcited....yes of course...we had to be..it was our first formal interview...for a first ever job....on of mah sir who used to work in pune joined this supercool office..in new mumbai..and he even told us to try for it..as they are searching for the tranies....i was not so keeen about working afterall it was in NEW MUMBAI..u knw how far it is...and who will travel and work thr for 8 hrs....but...sir told me that the pay is gonna be around...10 grands a motnh..nd mah jaw was like dropped..i told this to rims nd she was like.......chal naaaaaaaa...
samse day we updated our cv's we made thm look more formal..nd nicer...nd sir really liked them...nxt day....the trvelling was real sad.....we had to go to ghansoli.nd it de train was packed like anything...we were so nicely dressed up..of course we had to be..first interview ever..thn managed to get down at ghansoli....thn walked for say 10 min thn took a rick nd thn again walked for 10 mins
as we cudnt find de place...it was....sumwhr....out of de city...nd real far...thn as soon as we saw the office..it was amazing kool staff...cool decor...everything was awesome...we were so happy..nd even though like how to...decorate our cabin nd stuff...thn our test started....it was good enuf usual subbing nd essay stuff...nd thn came the interview....
BRB....hv sum wrk....interview in nxt blog...